clean pillows

a clean pillow

                      blessing buhril

 

i love

a clean pillow

where in her bosom

my weary head

find its rest

and where

the warmth of

a raw sunlight

i can smell

 

i love

a clean pillow

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ex

ex

                      blessing buhril

 

the game i already lose

the price i could never pay

the day i’ll never see

the life i’ll never live

the hands i’ll never hold

the lips i’ll never kiss again

 

day in and day out

i should quit pondering

of things that were

and of things that will never be.

that’s it

that’s it

                      blessing buhril

 

somewhere

it got to end

and you

just have to say

‘that’s it’

that’s it.

forever goodbye

forever goodbye

                               – blessing buhril

you

and the rest

moves on

i know it’s a good thing

me

here I am

still and still

watching

summer pass by

and winter too

and lately i realize

that i’ll have

to accept the fact

that there are things

which are not meant to be

and you know

it shudders me

to think

that our path

would never cross again

and that

this is already

forever goodbye…

say something

say something

                                                  – blessing buhril

 

when i look up the sky

            and don’t see the stars

when i look at the sign board

           and all is blank

when i look into reality

           and all i see is fiction

i lie on my bed

           and always dream awake

 

What are my eyes for Lord?

What are my ears for Lord?

 

I sit here standing

say something..

perhaps this evening

Please Lord say something.

revenge

revenge

                            blessing buhril

You are not my foe

and so I chose

not to fight you

I’ve thought about

what I should be doing

as I come along

when evening falls

and you start the scene

On evening like this

every time yes every time

it never takes long

for all my hopes

my dreams

to shatter

On evening like this

like everyone else

I easily tripped

walking the thin line

of

reason and emotions

And so

I’ve thought about

how I should fight back

bullet for bullet

anger for anger and

blood for blood

On evening like this

but I was wondering

if one could ever care

to listen

listen to that voice

that faintly whispers…

But courage

I don’t have it

and how much

I wish I could

I wish I would

gather enough courage

to listen to that faint voice

In the darkest of hour

does it make sense

to believe that

the only true revenge is..

to not..

to not avenge at all?

But

here

right here in this evening

I am telling you this

that..

you are not my foe

and so I chose

not to fight you

i will not break

photo: Will Le

i will not break

                           – blessing buhril

i will not break

when i am in neck deep

dipped in despair

gasping for breathe

and my sight is nothing

but darkness flashing

i will not break

when i am a captive of dismay

and all that i ever care

tortured right in front of me.

i will not break

after thousand years

and all my bones

turned to dust

i will not break

for

there is something

that i believe in

something

that will remain forevermore

i will not break

Psalms of Blessing

Psalms of Blessing

             ‘I’

 

this path is hazy

            but if this is what you want me to follow

this voice is fainting

            but if this is what you want me to hear

this Plan is intangible

             but if this is what you want me to believe in

here i am Lord

i am all in

i am all in

 

You are the past and beyond

You are the future and beyond

You are the present and ever

here i am Lord

i rest in You

i rest in You

                                      – blessing buhril

 

 

 

lyrics of my life

lyrics of my life

                                   -blessing buhril

 

Am I suppose to tell you

that songs have been with me?

Do I wish you’d hear about them?

Should I sing to the Moon and Stars?

NO,

not for today.

But,

if you look,

into the mirror of life

and happen to think about me,

ever,

then,

perhaps you’ll see colors,

colors in your cold eyes.

Perhaps hear them songs,

songs in silence..

For,

all these years,

for all I’ve been doing is,

but queuing them songs.

Yes, queuing them, and

singing them silently.

You know,

just so you know,

or you don’t,

but,

that,you’ve been,

and always been

songs of my dreams,

and that you are,

always are,

lyrics of my life.

 

 

 

 

of you

Of You

                                 -blessing buhril

 

Dreams and Hope

Of You,

Are the boat

Keeping me afloat.

 

Dreams and Hope

Of You,

Where forever I’ll stay,

They’ll take me Home one day.

 

Dreams and Hope

Of You.

Dreams and Hope

Of You.